“I’m grateful for being here. I’m a courageous person now, brave because things that I was so scared of I can deal with now. I feel whole, like before I used drugs.”
There’s a difference between being happy and joyful and I didn’t know that. Instead of praying for God to let me out of jail, to give me the shortcut, I heard someone say in church one time, “Don’t pray for God to move the mountain, but pray for the strength to climb it.” I like that, because all that bad that I went through, everything that broke me, was meant to happen. I was a judgmental, mean person, down on myself and everybody else, and I’m completely different now.
I’m grateful for being here. I’m grateful that my mom prayed for me. I’m a courageous person now, brave because things that I was so scared of, I can deal with now. Even running by myself when I exercise and when I want to quit, say, “You can do it. Just keep going.” I take responsibility for everything that I’ve done and when I tell people about my stories, people say, I’ve heard others say that I’m an inspiration to them. Even the director of HOPE, not just the girls that I’m in here with. The HOPE Foundation has really helped save my life. It’s changed me. I feel whole and I’m getting filled up, like before I used drugs.