“They don’t really ask me what’s going on and why things is happening with me. They just judge me. Like, I shouldn’t be like that.”
My recent incarceration caused me to lose a relationship with my kids’ mother. I guess over the past few years I didn’t treat her properly. But when I was finally ready to start treating her properly I end up coming to jail. She decided to move on. I have five kids and haven’t seen them since I came back in. But my parents keep in touch with her and I have phone calls. I write them once a week, every week, but it’s not as much contact as I would like.
My kids are 12, 10, 7, 2, and 1. The seven and the two-year-old have the same birthday. It made me struggle at times because at church you feel like they look down on me for coming back and forth to jail. They don’t really ask me what’s going on and why things is happening with me. They just judge, like, I shouldn’t be like that. They should want to try and understand our side of things. At times it makes me feel abandoned. Every day I pray at least that my kid’s mother and me can have the proper type of relationship and be good parents. I’m praying that God saves it all and we’re able to be back together, no matter what the circumstances.